~~Mixed Feelings on my Birthday~~
Before I go off typing,I do really want to say SORRY to all of you for not being able to post anything up lately.My PC still not yet fixed,and library computers,one word to describe it, s**ks!!!!Hahaha....joking"lah".Anyway,I wish to talk about something which happen yesterday.It was my birthday,19Jan.I'm supposed I should be happy,knowing that it was my birthday.I'm happy but I got a kind of mixed feeling.Most people often celebrate their special day in style.I do not,in the sense that I did not have the party going on and birthday cake to cut.Well,I was not angry at all.In fact,I shouldn't be angry and fight over emotions.
The fateful incident happened when my mum gave me an "Ang Pao".That's the least thing she can do for me,which I couldn't have ask for more.I still remain cool until guilty and rasional thoughts cripples through my mind.My heart cries when I think of her.I know she suffers more than we do on our birthday.That's the day she gave birth to me and my brother.She's the one that brought us to this world,shouldered with responsiblity to feed,and to take care of us till we are grown up.Although she struggles in her life,I know that,but she never grumbles for what happened on her.I can still recall the day when she told me that she had been through lots of tough life but she never blame anyone,neither she herself.She faces obstacles with determination,spirit of Never-Give-Up-Till-The-End.I feel bad right now.
And that's my mixed feelings.Happy but deep down inside my heart,the river of sadness flows.From the very moment on,I remind myself not to be too demanding but to be more obedient son.She often blames on herself for not able to provide us the luxuries,the comfortable surrounding where other parents can easily provide to their children.But that's alright for me.I don't blame my mum for what she can't do,but appreciate for all the hardships she had been through and the efforts she made to give us a better life.I'm proud of her.I swear to god that I'll love her till the day I die.Mum,I love you!!!!~
Folks,life is impermant.Life isn't a bed of roses for everybody.Therefore,cherish the day you had together and enjoy life to the fullest.Don't leave any regrets till the end of your life.That's all!!!See ya all folks!!!!
posted by ImGodsLove @ 5:43 AM
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